I’ve been madly busy so haven’t been able to blog much.

Main events:

1. Boyfriend moved up north to be near me (wooo!)
2. Sprogs went away on hols with their dad.
3. My emotions have been mostly quite low because of point 2, which has been a big shame for point 1! I think he understands, but even so.. It’s a shame.
4. I’ve been reading more of Stephen King’s Dark Tower series, and been loving it more and more with each chapter, am now three quarters through the third book.
5. I’ve painted a large abstract, woo:

I’ve been in stitches!

Result!

More positive things today:

I went for a physiotherapy appointment about my back again today and my therapist was so impressed with my improvement and attitude towards helping myself with the Pilates that she’s discharged me to continue the good work on my own. My pain level has gone from a 7 at worst to a 4, and I’ve lost inches from various areas around my body, so it’s all good. Now I’ve just got to keep it up. Which is hard when you’re ill.

My bro’s wii fit board likes me too! Says I’m ‘no stranger to excersize’ and I keep getting four stars and beating his scores! That’ll be that competative edge in me again.

Oooo

I might get a chance to do another commisioned piece for another play soon. Now that’s something to be excited about. My other commisioned painting is touring up in Edinburgh at the moment. Such a buzz. I hope I get some photo’s soon so that I can see it on the set.

At the mo I’m working on a mixed media piece, well when I’m not feeling a bit pants and under the weather. This damn cold!

Rain Rain Go Away

Well here I am again. My Youngest has gone on a school trip today to a Safari park. In this weather! Poor lamb. She’s been so excited too. All morning she’s been badgering everyone to get up and ready. We’ve never been so organised I can tell you. She makes for a very effective pint sized drill sergent.

Why is the weather sooo bad? I just want a bit of warmth and a little sun rays on my skin. I’m no sun worshipper at all, prefering white delicate etherial skin to brown leathery saddle bag skin, but the warmth actually improves my mood a lot. I think we all suffer from SAD in England!

But this cheered me up. It’s something I’ve found whilst perusing design blogs:

Hauntingly Beautiful

Bleet bleet!

Well after the crazy state I was in with the end of year exhibition at college, I’ve definately crumpled into a pathetic waste of space! Little lost lamb.

I guess all that drive and adrenalin has now taken its toll. I was very VERY sick last week. Or was it the week before? Well recently anyway. And it was a persistant little bug! Now however I’m more or less recovered, and although I still have my ongoing health issues that I ought to get sorted at the docs, like my impaired nerves on my toes and across the top of my feet, and numbness and tingling in various places including hands, buttocks (when I sit for a bit) and hips. Oh naff.. ok i’ll make the docs appointment right NOW… RINGING PHONE NUMBER…. Hmmm have to ring back later.

Student loan people are clammering for my soul in writing before they’ll believe that I have kids, so that’s a pain, and what doesn’t help is that my cat pissed and shat all over the tax credit form that they need as further evidence. I was not amused. Obviously my cat is extremely inteligent and is making some sort of social statement by doing that. Not helpful for me though. Also the dog seems to have decided to follow her example and weed up my doorframe twice yesterday. The doorframe right next to the cat flap that provides his constant handy access to the outside world might i add. SIGH. He’s lucky he’s so cute. He also confused me by getting his pink lipstick out for the first time I’ve ever seen the other day. He’s had his balls removed and is over 8 years old. Strange time to get randy? He looked very uncomfortable as he sat upright looking at me with what can only be described as a guilty and befuddled expression on his mush. He didn’t know what to do with it. Luckily for the cat.

More crapness.. No sooner that I’ve finished college, in fact I’ve still got to go back and pick up certificates and one scultpure, then the council send me a bloody letter charging me for council tax again. (Full time student’s are exempt) God damn it! Now I’ve somehow got to prove to them that I’m off to uni. Bastard money grabbing hos.

Pilates has slowed down. I made a great start with it, but since I became ill and couldnt do anything for over a week, I’ve not got back into it again. Sometimes I really despise myself for my lack of follow through! Anyway, so determined am I to just ‘get on and do it’ today that I’ve dressed myself in my tracky bottoms and vest top in order to be able to have no excuse but to whip out that thin arsed cheap old pilates mat that offers less support than a bed of nails, and corkscrew my arse off. (Corkscrew is actually a move for those of you who aren’t pilates savvy) Of course I could be doing it right now, but no.. i’m blogging instead.

This place should be entitled Ambigous Procrastinator.

Speaking of blogging.. I’ve not been doing it a lot lately, but real life got in the way. I wonder if this latest outpouring will get me back in the mood again? I think perhaps it will.

In other news, I’ve decided to write and illustrate a book. Well more illustrations than writing perhaps, I’ve not quite figured it out yet. I’ve got a great website that publishes bespoke books for distribution in the UK, so all i need now is the content. I’m gonna put the book available for sale from this website just in case any crazy readers out there want a piece of me. It’s certainly going to give me something to do over the holidays. Now anyone out there want to suggest content? I’m very open to suggestions. I want to illustrate around 30 pages worth. I was thinking of creating illustrations of my world, things that make up my life.. But then who actually would want to see that? Mind you, the book is more for me than anyone else. And if anyone is interested then that’s a bonus. I was also thinking maybe I could collaborate with someone. Or a book of short poetry with illustrations, or lines of commentary much like Searle’s cats:

I love that book, but obviously don’t want to ‘copy’ as such. Argh the minefield of homage.

First Meme of the Month

5 things in my BAG:

1. Purse

2. A recent receipt from Asda totally a shocking £97

3. Mobile

4. Pen or two

5. A little tester perfume bottle… Rose something or other.

5 favourite things in my ROOM (But what room? Bedroom?):

1. Bed.

2. Whatever book I’m currently into lying on the bedside table.

3. My bedside table lamp.. friendly low lighting and perfect for reading in bed, my nightly passion.

4. Make-up!

5. The artwork on the walls, Van Gogh and Mine.

5 things I’ve always wanted to DO:

1. Go to Uni (oh look I’m doing it!)

2. Be a gallery represented artist.

3. Own a loft space in the center of Manchester.

4. Travel to many places including Prague and New York.

5. Get married.

5 things I’m currently into:

1. WoW

2. Imogen Heap

3. Robert Rauschenberg

4. Facebook

5. Pilates

Eugh

Do you know, I’m really bored.

My boyfriend says he never ever gets bored, even if he has nothing to do. That must be so rare and handy.

I’m very bored, even though I’ve got stuff to be getting on with. Art stuff for college etc. I can’t be bothered.

Boyf also commented the other day how I never do any art for myself anymore in my spare time. I use up so much of my creative energy on college rubbish that I have nothing left to give on the stuff I want to.

Pah.

TLC

I think I need to water some plants.